Mel Crianza on Darren Nathanael

Regretful Longing

Tue, 28 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I miss you like the rain during the summer.
I miss you like the heat during the rain.
I miss you when you're gone, and only when you're gone.
When my regrets have built up and all I can do is long.
Yet I can't tell myself I want you, because looking back at it I don't.
But I miss you like the echoes of laughter during grief.
I miss you like the summers that I let pass along.
I miss you, but just the thought of you. Never more.
Because if I see you again, I'm afraid all I'll do is recoil.
And I'll only feel resentment sink into my bones.
For what? For seeing me at my lowest,
For seeing me turn away,
For all the disappointment you've embedded in my soul.
For becoming a regretful longing,
only here to haunt me more.

Photo by Josh Nuttall on Unsplash

What Makes a Happy Day?

Tue, 28 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

There are some days where a heavy bout of melancholy and sadness covers me, but there are some days (like today) where a feeling of cheerfulness and joy follow my trail. It’s days like these that remind me that life is worth living.

I really didn’t do much today. It started off like any day— waking up at an ungodly time after sleeping at an ungodly time. The first thing I do is use my phone, my crush and I having been on call the night prior (or early day…?), he’s the first thing I see and the first person I really talk to. Maybe that contributed to my happiness, we dunno, but the morning (or afternoon in this case) was looking up.

A Close Friend

Tue, 21 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

I remember the first time that she and I got close to each other. It was during one of our English club events when one of our juniors had been teasing her. That wasn’t the first time I had seen her nor talked to her probably, but that was the moment in time where our friendship was basically set in stone as our junior had made a groupchat with the three of us. A groupchat which has had multiple versions and renditions over the years as our friendship has continued to blossom.

Sweet, Like Honey

Mon, 20 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

Saccharine. Sweet.
Glistening like liquid gold.
The taste lingers in my mouth,
Covering the bitterness of my soul.
Much like honey, in its soothing qualities,
You have soothed me so.

In sweetness, I drown,
And a smile grows on my face
As I am enveloped in the scent—
Of honey and you.

The words from your mouth,
They flow smoothly.
And in their haze, I am hypnotized.
Because your words, they tempt me
To taste the honey on your lips
By pressing mine on yours.

Summer Heat

Sun, 19 Apr 2026 00:00:00 +0000

There is no doubt in my mind that Summer is one of the most well loved seasons out there. The sun shines down on us, school has ended, swimming pools are filled with noise and laughter, and beaches are packed to the brim of families who want a break from the heat that the season brings. I mean, how can someone be sad when the sun shines so loudly? In contrast to the gloomy skies of winter or rainy season that normally bring in seasonal depression, summer brings joy to the hearts of many.